Deathly pale, Tristian opens his mouth to answer, but pauses, then gives a heavy sigh. "There is no answer for

Deathly pale, Tristian opens his mouth to answer, but pauses, then gives a heavy sigh. "There is no answer for what I did, . I shall carry this weight until the end of my life. Perhaps..." Tristian raises his head in alert. "Perhaps there is still a chance to change one last thing..." Tristian's face collapses and becomes downcast. "No. I'm only lying to myself."